I remember when my children were babies and the novelty of their birth had worn off and reality had set in, those dark nights feeling totally inadequate to the task of motherhood. Oh the prayers said pacing the floor in the dead of night! Those converstations that were part prayer over fears for the future, part apologies to my baby and promises to do my best and better.  I wondered if Mary ever did the same.  Did she know from her spiritual learning what her Son had come to do?  Did she pray that it might not be so? Did she move forward with faith and trust in God that He would take care of her and help her Son through every pain? We simply don't know because we do not have her account.  But I think she must have.  This song is an attempt to express some of those feelings.